
So last week was probably the best week in an extremely long time, if not my life. Paid a visit to the base I was born, for a short while, and also the base where I lived for a few years. Robins and Eglin AFB. I got a little emotional, I wont lie. Being back there brings back good and very bad memories. Not much has changed since I lived there. The same restaurants are there. The same beach houses are there. The neighborhood we lived in still looked the same as we passed it on our way to Hurlburt field. I forgot what it felt like to live and travel around a base. Everyone has a mission whether it is small or huge. Everyone greets and has manners. A base is a team, everyone depends on everyone and expects them to carry out what it is their supposed to carry out. Everyone is sure of themselves. No hesitation. True Airmen.
This past weekend was Dining In and RWW (Rising Warhawk Weekend). Needless to say, it added to the list of memorable times spent with the Det. Just about every cadet got their first choice of AFSC they wanted. I’m really happy for them. RWW was….just freaking awesome. Hadn’t had something like that since O-Week. Waking up extremely early, doing PT, learning things, utilizing teamwork, motivation, it was just great. I lost my voice almost the first day in. RWW time spent training was the equivalent of 14 LLABs. That’s just crazy good. You can’t get better hand’s on training than that. All you cadets who didn’t participate, shame on you. For those of you who did go, we’re just closer and stronger as a group and as individuals. I’m proud to know you all.
With that being said, this whole week put me in a quite different perspective than I was recently. I see things hundreds times better than I previously did. I was 100 percent sure I wanted to be in the Air Force and as an officer, but now it’s raised to about 250 percent. I can’t see myself doing anything else. I’m going to do whatever it takes to get there.
Everything else in life, things aren’t clear at all. I’m having more and more spurts of indifference. Not be satisfied by anything. Just turned off. Many things don’t catch my interest as much and I feel like things can’t compare.
I have friends outside of ROTC but the majority of them get bored with me cause I’m different than I was. I don’t really joke around anymore. I just really love being around my cadet friends cause we seem to have tons in common. Maybe I need to make new friends outside of ROTC. Who the hell knows. But some of the friends I do have outside of ROTC are awesome, don’t get me wrong.
As far as girls and relationships go, it’s kind of hard to explain without pissing off or upsetting, but what can I say….
It’s an on and off thing. There are times I’m all for it, then there times I’m just disinterested, want to be left alone. The things I want out of life are still the same, I guess I’m just comparing my current situations to what I desire/want. I’m always evaluating the smallest things and major things. Sometimes I feel like no one can keep up with me. I know I’m not perfect of course, I have faults probably just as much as anyone else, if more. But again, that’s how I feel. I hold expectations, everyone is allowed to. If you didn’t have expectations then you’d just be settling. I for one, DO NOT want or like to settle for something I don’t want or need.
But again, I have spurts usually when I see something that brings me to the attention of being disinterested.
Anyway, the only sure thing in my life as of right now, is the Air Force and if that’s all I end up with because my other expectations in life aren’t met, so be it.
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by Raleigh
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